AGONY

You’ve been like this in the past
In one point, you realized and accepted , it was hard
It was empty…and you can’t live without it
And you prayed so hard that it will return
And that you were willing to accept, even the less
Even if you will be the last...…
Even if it will hurt you so much….

Now, you thought it returned
You have been maintaining your cool
Thinking… it was nothing….
The hurt is nothing….
But it is something… it is difficult…

And now you are praying again so hard…
Everyday in your life… for a miracle

It is scary indeed….
Thinking that you will again face the future without it
You keep on blaming yourself
For the things that you thought you should have done
But you know deep inside, you have done so much
More than what you should have done in the first place

Its not yours…in this present time dimension….
Only the miracle can change what is present
Only the invisible hands can rewrite what was written
For he alone understood the past… your past

For many people, the past is just the past
But the past says who we really are
Many denied the past ……………………..
But of course its useless living it ………

I pray so hard…. that everything is nothing……
That I will feel nothing…………….